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And I have turned
my whole world upside down,
trying not to let you go;
watching you walk away
is like a fatal blow.
I’m just really, really ready to be happy with someone again. I thought there was so much I was missing out by being in a committed relationship, but in the end I realized all I was missing was .. being in a relationship again. I don’t know why I ever worried because I don’t have desire to flit between men, but yeah.
Thoughts. Late night thoughts. Not so much adultery tonight. Late night thinking and broadway music.
This song reminds me of how sad I feel right now.
Here let me put it on repeat.
But what if we’re meant to always just be friends?
I just had a really long talk about life and relationships with my mom and Never Grow Up was playing on my phone in the background and it was really just a movie moment.
And she went to bed now and I’m just sitting here being all teary.
God why doesn’t tumblr let me make read mores on my phone. This is all really boring and cliche and I’m just writing this for myself and memories and stuff.
I know I said yesterday was great, but today was a perfect final day. I even forgot that I took the AP Gov test until someone else mentioned it in 4th block. Anyways, I went straight to Nitcher’s room and stayed there from encor-time to the end of the day. Whitney was there, Bryan was there, the choir kids were there. We all had pizza and talked with Nitcher for a bit, and she gave me a really sweet card. I just love her so much. When I left her classroom for the final time when the bell rang, I had the cliche moment of a million emotions and teared up, just thinking about how my French teachers really shaped who I am and helped me survive high school.
Then afterward Whitney and Bryan and I went to Sonic. We stayed there for 2 and a half hours, since Rachel, Rod, and Gabby all randomly showed up, and Charlie and Max came later. It was so great to just talk with people I love for forever, and never being bored a second during it.
I just really hope I remain good friends with everyone over summer and see them all frequently. I need my daily dose of my main bitch Whitney, my sassy gay friend Bryan (because even sassy gays need a sassy gay friend), my ranting partner Rachel, my polar opposites Kristi and Gemma to balance me out, my favorite mermaid Maggie, and my overly-outgoing choir friends.
Okay MY STORY:
My mom just told me this but she has a friend named Krystal who has the most ADORABLE 2-year-old son. Anyway, in all of my graduation invitations that I sent out I put a picture of me in it (y’all haven’t seen this one so it doesn’t matter but) and so when Krystal got her invitation she called my mom and told her that her son had asked who the person was in the picture, and she told him that it was Kris’ (my mom’s name) son Bryan. So then he got really quiet and was like, “Can I have that picture of him?” So she gave him the picture and then went off to do something or another, and a few minutes later she went to check on him and he was laying on the ground with my picture next to him. So Krystal asked him what he was doing with my picture there, and he said, “Well, he’s my new best friend.”
And then he took my picture and slept with it and I AM FLAILING OH MY GOD it is literally the most flattering and adorable I HAVE NEVER EVEN MET HIM AND NOW I REALLY WANT TO BE HIS BEST FRIEND.